This may seem silly to some, this note to me but really it’s so easy as women to set our needs aside for others. I have thought long and hard about what may be my “spiritual gift” Do I even have one? It dawned on me recently that I’m a natural encourager, I want all who are around me to feel accepted and loved. I want my family and friends to succeed and to follow their dreams. However I tend to set my dreams aside, I tell myself I’m not good enough, I’m not worthy, it’s more important to love God and others, if I love myself then I’m being selfish. Again after thinking about it for a long, long time, it’s NOT selfish. I have heard it so many times, like the crashing airplane scenario, put your oxygen mask on first before your child’s?” I never got that, I always wondered why a mom would put her mask on first and not her child’s but if we don’t help ourselves we will not be able to help others. Some wise women have shared this philosophy with me and I think I’m finally…..sort of getting it. I believe in God, this is my truth; it’s where I place my faith. God created some pretty amazing things! The way he created people blows me away. We have these awesome brains that remember things, learn things, operate our bodies basically, eyes better than any camera ever invented, I always wish that I had a button on the side of my head to take pictures of what my eyes see. I could literally go on and on about how awesome the human creature is. Not only that, NONE of us are exactly the same, even identical twins have their differences. God made some awesome, awesome creations and you and I are one of the very best, so why wouldn’t I want to love, honor and respect one of God’s gifts, his creation? It’s so hard to make good choices, to feed ourselves healthy and also feed ourselves spiritually. Finding excuses is very easy much easier than the action of making and doing good things for ourselves. But maybe this year 2013 ahead, just maybe I can be more mindful of this, in the long run it will benefit not just me but my only daughter, my two boys, my family. And as I think my spiritual gift is encouragement (if that’s even one of them) then I should also encourage myself by keeping in the word, believing in me and stop putting myself down, treat myself the way I treat others. Shouldn’t be too hard.
I also have given my word some thought for 2013. Last year I picked the word can, it was a great word of action and much better than can’t. Instead of saying…”oh I can’t do that” I began to say “I can” And I also knew that anything is possible with Christ, I already have that to my advantage so why not…CAN. This year I choose the word LOVE. This word is packed full of power and it’s also an action word, if I love God, love my life, love my friends, love my family, love my enemies, love myself than only good things can come of this LOVE word. Do you have a word for 2013? I would love to hear about it if you do.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is LOVE.
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.
My thoughts are not original here, I listen a lot, I read a lot so my words and ideas, thoughts are an accumulation of things. I have always been very quiet and I feel much more comfortable sitting on the outskirts taking it all in rather than be the center of attention, I think by being an observer I have learned so much. Oh and forgive the childlike writing, I had to write this backwards while looking into the mirror, you know like Da Vinci wrote backwards and from right to left in his journals…..this is how it’s done, not easy….for me.