Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
So I have to ask myself, what are the desires of my heart? When I look deeper into the word desire and look it up quickly in my real life hardcover children’s dictionary (I like simple explanations) Desire: a strong wish for something or someone. So what are the desires of my heart? What are the desires of your heart? It’s now 2:41 a.m. and my immediate desire would be rest. Not just for now but each and every night. My body is holding stress. Could it be that the stress and lack of true rest could be creating all these toxins in my body that make me itchy and keep me awake, and my obsession with wanting to peel open each wound?
Our bodies have this amazing ability to heal and regenerate however my will isn’t allowing the healing to happen.
I want, I desire, I have a strong wish to be obedient. For a natural-born rebel, this doesn’t feel easy. What areas do I desire to be obedient in? This can apply to so many.
Time Management. Where do I spend my 24 hours in a day? Is it productive? Is it selfish? Is it helping others? Is it in the presence of God? Is it thoughtless, countless hours on-line? Is it playing with my phone?
General Health. Am I getting enough rest? Am I putting the most efficient fuel into my precious gift of a body? Am I helping it to function at its best? Building strength? Am I taking the best care of this earthly body God made, my unique, one of a kind body?
Finances. Do I spend my money wisely? Do I invest in my future? Do I carelessly squander my money? Do I give back to God?
Now at 2:58 a.m. I’m feeling overwhelmed because obedience is my biggest desire and what does it mean actually to obey? To do what someone tells you to do. Usually never that easy. FOR ME. So if I delight (take great pleasure in the Lord) He will grant me obedience.
And these are the conversations I have with God in the middle of my nights. What do you do?