The history of my weight the long and short of it. The short of it….I have always thought I was fat even when I was 115 pounds in my high school days.
That’s Motorcycle man up there and me and my red mustang. Loved that car.
My young adult years were spent in the 120’s.
This is us with some really good friends back in the day, seeing them this Saturday in fact! Can’t wait.
By the time I married at age 23, I was 125 pounds, I felt strong and healthy although in my mind 125 was still not skinny. My time was spent with Cindy Crawford and her workout tapes. Probably my proudest picture below, on my honeymoon in my swim suit. I do not expect to see 125 again, I’m not sure at this age 125 would even look healthy?
I loved this bathing suit.
I quickly put on 15 pounds within the first year of my marriage. I thought LOVE was southern, home cooked meals like mashed potatoes with gravy on top and fried chicken. I bought lots of soda and boxes of ding dongs. I felt being an adult I could bring in that junk food that I was not raised on. I figured since I was an adult I could load up my cupboards and fridge with junky food, like it was one of the “perks” of being a grown up. And still I was not fat by any means. I seemed to maintain 145-150.
While I was raising the tiny kids I did lots of running around, carrying them around and hauling their things. Somewhere along the way I crept into the 160’s but still active and always on the go.
left/right Me 5 months pregnant with Aus, me a barely pregnant with Abbie and the last shot, I just love it’s me and Dyl (my now personal home health coach)
In my mid 30’s I got tired of the weight in the 160’s, my feet hurt and I didn’t feel very good I ate lots of red meat, I discovered rib eye!! I love making homemade desserts, cooking and baking. In my world LOVE equals homemade food. Because my feet were hurting and stuff I decided to join Weight Watchers, I lost my weight slow and steady and got down to 137 and maintained it only a few short years. Then went right back to my old ways, soda, drive thru’s, red meat, cheesy bread, and lots and lots of homemade desserts. I have managed to maintain (if you want to call it that) 170’s. However I will go up 10 or down 10 on rare occasions. Up 10 when I’m completely not paying attention to myself or down 10 when I get all crazy and start extreme walking. But for the most part a good solid 170 for the past 7 years. I know my body frame is not meant to carry this amount of weight. I’m 5’4″ and my bones are not very big, I have a small face and I often think my head looks sort of like a grape sitting atop someone else’s body. below are some non flattering pictures of myself. The ones I would never show. I hate full body shots and as some of you readers know, I have had eczema for the past 4 years and a high anxiety because of it. Always picking and pulling away the scabs, it gives me a strange relief to pick at them.
Just a bunch of none flattering pictures of me. Yes, I have these skin issues, yes I’m over weight but I still like to enjoy life.
I’m beginning to think that because I have not taken care of myself properly in the past 7 years that these toxins and skin problems have arrived. Again, could be hormonal. I have gone to a list of doctors. I do believe the smartest of all was the acupuncture doctor , he said in his broken English “toxins! toxins!” He told me to lose weight! He wasn’t very nice about any of it. I have been to 4 different Western medicine doctors, this acupuncturist, a homeopathic doctor, 2 dermatologist and a psychologist. Nobody has been able to “cure” me. I have been on a strictly veggie smoothie diet, I only lasted a think a week in a half on that one. I did the Daniel fast for a period of 21 days where I also spent serious time with God in prayer and in study. I have cut all sugar and ate only whole foods for about 6 weeks and the first few of those weeks I was a raving maniac. NONE of these things I have been able to do for the long haul. All these things feel and seem extreme in my world and not realistic as a life style.
I’m going to try herbalife for a while. I’m thinking a life style out of this will not be a life long commitment either but it will be something I can do for several months, taking vitamins and supplements to get my body healthy. A tool to use to reach my healthy weight. I believe if I can get myself to a healthy weight that my health and skin issues will be resolved. I could be wrong but it will be on the list of things I try. I’m not going to stop trying things. I know I’m not meant to live out my years like this. I’m joining round 2 of FITCAMP which is free still and Dylan is exercising with me at home and is more than happy to be my in home health coach.
I will be posting updates here and also keeping it as a cooking, inspirational and even time to time guest spot space but in the meantime my head is into the FIT. It’s where I need to be.