And day after day, I wake up feeling
Day after day, I wake up feeling, feeling
Suspended and open
And what happened in May? Lots of really beautiful and good things happened in May it was a month of surprises and happy days, love an abundance of it. Food. Lots of food. Celebrations, trips to the moon. Yes. It was all these things and guess what happened to me? I felt joy, I felt sadness, I felt light, I felt darkness, I walked and walked and danced, I toasted, I hugged, I kissed, I held tight, I let go. May was full, it was “chalk” full. Later I can share the 24 hour get-a-way and other nice things but today it’s time for the update. I really want to call it dreaded update but that’s sort of being negative when really all I am is human. I gained 4 pounds. That happened. And it’s okay. He loves me anyway. He will always love me anyway. I’m blessed but I still want to be strong, healthy and clear minded so although I have “fallen” it doesn’t mean I can’t dust myself off. So please reach for my hand, pull me up, kiss my cheek and tell me it’s okay. It’s all going to be okay. I have new days ahead of me. No more looking back. It’s over, that part is over. Because although I gained 4 pounds, I watched a beautiful couple wed, I got news of a baby being born, I celebrated another year, I was acknowledged as a good mama, I celebrated LOVE with my love and mostly the month was good, better than good. So let’s focus on that shall we!! Yes we shall! In the end what will matter? Will it be the number on the scale or will it be how often you laughed, how much you really felt, truly, truly felt. I’m OPEN, yes I’m open sometimes too much, sometimes it scares people but if it does that’s okay too, it means they are not ready to be my friend.