Taking Stock MARCH 2015

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MADE: these really yummy caramel brownies

COOKED: I’m always cooking but my favorite now is throwing things on the BQ

DRANK: This month I have been juicing lots and lots, trying to get my glow back

READ: (reading still) Brave book and one called Self Matters by Dr. Phil

WANTED: a record player…yep. Still want one of these. Have a perfect spot for it.

PLAYED: with my niece and sister-n-law as we shared a photo with each other each day

DECIDED: I want to paint my dining room gray and not peacock or white

WISHED: for more rain…yes still wishing

ENJOYED: a BQ with friends from work, a nice weekend in Landers and a moon date

WONDERED: If my medical test results will be nice and normal

PONDERED: how my garden grows – it’s so mind blowing to me

STARTED: to paint a new/old book case happy yellow…finished it too

WATCHED: 7 Little Johnstons. Super cool family.

HOPED: for the trees to show signs of life

NEEDED: a new routine

SMELLED:  BQ and fire pit smells of our California spring

WORE: new dress and jeans from a friend who donated a nice handful of clothes to me

NOTICED: trash can be picked up and photographed as “art”

KNEW: that I would love a new/old/free book case to house all our BOOKS!

THOUGHT: How great it will be when my sister’s husband returns to the states, he got his interview!!

ADMIRED: Tim and Sarah for taking such good care of H

SORTED: through my books and decided to donate a big box full

BOUGHT: a few succulents to plant

FINALLY: changed medical groups, had a physical, blood work and mammogram.  Self Care.

DISLIKED: my random judgmental thoughts

FELT: gratitude when all the babies were born in March starting with Fox Quinn, then Miracle Lynn and last to arrive in March, our families little warrior Caiden Chad who is a Gastroschisis baby and had to have surgery when he arrived but the little warrior baby is healing and doing better day by day.

FOLLOWING: Jesus

SNACKED: still eating apples and drinking juice the green kind

WISHED: bad things didn’t have to happen

LISTENED: to the quite which can be good every so often

DISCOVERED: that “crazy is overrated”

SCRIPTURE: Galatians 5:22-23 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

I have loved this scripture for so long. It’s so very true and you know what’s even more special for me, our wedding anniversary is 5/22…so it helps me to remember the reference.

get your green on

lucky ass

Happy St. Patricks Day but more importantly….Happy birthday to my younger and handsome brother Brandon and my Amazing father-n-law who also both were born on this celebratory day!  Turns out I have had this shirt since 2011 and wear it every St. Patrick’s Day, also turns out I wore the same exact earrings today, not planned but shows what a creature of habit I am though;)

I was so greatly touched yesterday by the encouraging comments left on my blog post.  It seems I reach some of you readers out there but I wonder if you know how deeply you touch me.  I can’t tell you how much I appreciate a comment left.  I don’t want to say it’s because I’m insecure and I require cheering but I have found that the way I work best is with positive reinforcement and simply a pat on the back and “job well done” is all I need to keep trucking.  I have always been this way. A few encouraging words go a very long way with me so I have also become somewhat of an encourager myself.  Maybe too much at times….or so my kids think.

Favorite thing I heard today was from Dylan aka Moon Rebel “I want to learn to do a back flip, and I know I can do it because I’m athletic and capable, I just need to commit”  I like it.  He also found a butterfly with a broken wing.  Picked it up then placed it in our garden.

and the very last thing shared today here in this space is the inspiration and free bookcase that was delivered to my driveway by Uncle Don and scouted by Aunt Lynn and if it hadn’t been for my father-n-law knowing I was on the search for a bookcase then it would not have fallen into place so perfectly.  Let’s just say it will include yellow paint…such a very happy color and peacock-blue.  More to come on that later. I hope you will come back to see.

Color makes me happy!

taking stock – february

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MADE: made a video time capsule every single Sunday in February.

COOKED: I cooked a few new recipes in February – mostly from Pioneer Woman. YUM!

DRANK: lots and lots of water, in hopes my skin would clear a little. It did not.

READ: a book about the lost art of hand written letters (a gift from Mama Bear)

WANTED: a record player

PLAYED: my own share a heart a day game from February 1st to the 14th.

DECIDED: I wanted wood to expand some shelves.

WISHED: for more rain

ENJOYED: sweet breads that my mom bought us from 85 degrees.

WONDERED: if I should paint my dining room bold and peacock…or peaceful and white?

PONDERED: my authentic self

STARTED: to read self matters by Dr. Phil. Growing is hard work.

WATCHED: new season of Survivor and Amazing Race.

HOPED: for more rain

NEEDED: new underwear

SMELLED: the wet asphalt when it did rain

WORE: leggings. I finally got leggings! For under my skirts!!

NOTICED: the beautiful movement of the sun and realized as someone pointed out…I love the sun

KNEW: I knew I would fall completely in love with making videos

THOUGHT: about how when we celebrate 25 years of marriage in two years how we can go on a trip

ADMIRED: my sister for living without her husband and reconfiguring her life until he can come live here for good. International marriages can be rough.

SORTED: through Abbie’s room and donated some Barbies and dolls that she was ready to release

BOUGHT: the wood for those new shelves

FINALLY: emptied out an old cabinet that had just stuff that I didn’t really need anymore

DISLIKED: all the random hair my little animals leave for me to vacuum and sweep up

FELT: loved by some sweet mail and gifts that arrived via mail in February

FOLLOWING: View Finders and I’m head over heels in love with this blog

SNACKED: on an apple nearly every day dipped in maple syrup almond butter

WISHED: My legs would stop itching

LISTENED: to my gut instincts because if one feels it in their gut then it’s probably true, right Deb?

DISCOVERED: my imovie had a newer version with an upgrade I had ignored!!!

SCRIPTURE FOR FEB: Ephesians 3:16-19  16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

and speaking of making movies:  My time capsule for the entire month of February can be watched here and the secret word is:    love

And it is here when I finally realized how much the sun means to this California girl.

https://vimeo.com/120959143

meal/care package for new parents

IMG_2549Some friends of mine just had their first baby last week.  It’s been a little while since new babies have been happening around here so baby Caleb arrived and I couldn’t be more excited.  You see my oldest will be 20 next month and my little baby girl will be 13 on Sunday!!  It’s been a while since I held a baby or even remember exactly what it was like to have a new-born bundle around.  I do remember though that it’s the most awesome blessing, they are amazing little miracles and when I received a few home cooked meals delivered to my door I was ever so happy.  I would much rather be hanging out with my new little baby then cooking dinner.  I wanted to return the favor.  I looked up on Pinterest and the internet about new parent care packages and honestly I didn’t find a whole lot.  I was disappointed actually and well, part of it could be my skills researching on not exactly the best.  There may be lots of blogs and ideas out there but I didn’t find them.

I didn’t want to just drop of a meal.  I wanted to make it special but at the same time I didn’t want to break the bank.  We are all on a budget after all.  I thought about it a little bit and decided a homemade soup would be good, it was a gray and rainy day.  A healthy soup with broth, beans and veggies and a little chicken sausage.  Then I figure a good loaf of bread always goes well with soup.  That would be the quick and easy meal.  I wanted to put it in something cute besides a plastic Tupperware so I used a glass container for the soup that I didn’t care if I got back.

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Dessert is always a good idea but I didn’t want them to feel like they had to eat it right away.  They may have been getting other sweet treats so I made cookie dough and froze individual servings.  Then put them in a jar of course. This way they could pop them in the oven when they felt like a batch of warm cookies.

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I made sure to include the recipe I made up for the soup and all the ingredients just in case the new mama had eating restrictions.  This time of year I have a thing for daffodils so I put a little bundle in her basket so she could enjoy watching them open up in the days to come.  A tiny notebook for notes on feeding times and stuff like that and a good magazine all about babies.  I ran to Goodwill to pick up a basket for 2.99, and honestly if I spent more time thinking this out I would have maybe painted the basket and made it cuter, I also would have maybe used something more special than newspaper to fill up the void in the baskets bottom but my idea and shopping was limited to Sunday afternoon.  I thought I would share here what I did.  It worked out well because my family ate the same soup and also got cookies out of the deal.  It was a win win.  Plus when I delivered the basket I got to hold a sweet new precious baby boy!

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Just start. Remember that.

That’s all I had to ponder really were those two words.  “Just Start”  because of course I’m realizing my husband can’t do it for me, my famiy can’t do it for me, not even the most encouraging of friends can do it for me.  I have to be intentional and do it myself.

I’m working on letting the perfection go.  That’s the hardest part of all.  I have read many books about the subject.  I joke that I have read so many self help books I should be one amazing human being but reading and doing are two seperate notions.  My last post brought in some encourement from friends.  It connected me with Linda again who wrote me the most lovely note and she encouraged me to never give up on my blogging and some of the other stuff I do.  There are times when I wonder.  I wonder why I blog?  What’s my purpose?  I know I don’t speak much in the normal way that people do.  I’m really very quiet but the words, there are many in my head so if I don’t speak them out then writing is the second best thing.

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I don’t want to give up on my blog.  I really don’t know it’s exact purpose.  I do know it has connected me with new friends.  I do know that people will tell me upon running into them that they read my blog, that it’s really honest and I’m so transparent that it’s partly what they like about it. Sometimes I’m completley amazed when I run into someone and they will bring up my blog and I wasn’t even aware they knew it existed.  That’s always a good feeling.  So I’m not going to give it up but sometimes I feel like it.  I can write these words in a private journal.  But I choose to share them here in the world.  I really love to share my pictures.  I like to let people know that being grateful is something that makes life really amazing.  That slowing down to breathe in the air, to watch the trees sway in the wind and the clouds shift through the sky and birds the way they fly free and sing.  When I take all this in all I can do is think about how completely mind blowing it all is. How He created all of these amazing things.  On the other hand when I see a movie like American Sniper and I see how terrible other countries have it and the hate and the violance.  It makes me very sad and honestly I have a hard time comprehending all of that too.

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This is one of those blogs where I go from one subject to the next.  But back to “Just Start”  I’m slowly back to treating my body with respect.  My legs are probably the worst they have been in a very long time.  That part can kind of get me.  But knowing that I’m drinking more water, that I’m getting out to walk a little.  These are all steps in the right direction.  In doing so I find treasures, like abanded feathers that remind me that God loves me.  It’s like the hearts, God’s little calling cards.  He cares about all things.  We have some blessings that have happened recently.  A baby boy was born in the wee hours this morning, healthy and beautiful, a friend of mine is living her authentic life and doing what her heart was made for, I recieved the sweetest handprints from our sponsored child today, those little hands touched my heart.  I also recieved a gift in the mail from one of my Aunts who thought of me and blessed my heart today so much I wanted to do cartwheels. I have so much to be thankful for, it overwhelms me at times.  So this I’m trying to absord.

I leave you with a Sunday video if you choose to watch.  The secret code word is always

love

lower case.

change is hard

“Be kind to yourself, be patient, you will find your answers. Love who you are right now—even if right now isn’t a place you want to be—you will always be you—start to appreciate yourself! You will feel so much better! And do not compare yourself to others. You are on your own special road. Be well my fellow travelers and know your path is a good one.”  LINDA SILVA PALLESCHI-

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I remember this quote and I have used it in a past post.  A post when things were looking better and I was in a more positive outlook.  But this quote is really important for me to reflect back on.  To remember.  I have not just used it once before but twice and this, this will be my third time using her quote.  Her wise words.  Linda is such a beautiful soul.  I’m so happy that she meandered into my life via  the photo sharing site I was once very active in.  I love the fact this this woman has impacted my life in a very positive way.

Right now.  I’m not walking.  Right now.  I’m not eating very healthy.  Right now I feel tired.  Right now.  I know what I should be doing.  Right now.  I’m not doing what is best.  Right now.  I know exactly what it feels like to be human.  I’m actually really good at being human.

Sometimes I think it has something to do with my mood.  I have been unmotivated and a little down lately but not because life isn’t great.  It’s wonderful.  Today I even found a feather in the parking lot when I left work. I looked up and said “Thank you God for thinking of me and for loving me so much even when I’m not so good”  I stopped by the side of the road to enjoy the purple wild flowers and Moon Rebel treated me to a soda and bean burrito.  But you see that’s part of it.  The soda.  The bean burrito.  When I eat not so good and I don’t move much, I get down.  I was reading a blog recently and  the phrase “just start” was used.  But those words, they are in the back of my head.  They just need to move to the front of my head.  We will see.  We are celebrating Chinese New Year tonight.  Maybe I will be inspired after a delicious meal to “just start”  Plus today’s word is chocolate so I’ll be eating some of that too.  Then maybe after that the words “just start” will come forward to the front of my brain.  hee hee.  Basically I’m just a human person with human thoughts and I’m being honest with them right now, right here.

 

Happy New Year.  Now that’s a thought, its Chinese New Year…Clean Slate right?!! Tomorrow is a brand new day.   And remember YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

 

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