I’m back – Now Let’s Do This!

Be kind to yourself, be patient, you will find your answers. Love who you are right now—even if right now isn’t a place you want to be—you will always be you—start to appreciate yourself! You will feel so much better! And do not compare yourself to others. You are on your own special road. Be well my fellow travelers and know your path is a good one.”  –LINDA SILVA PALLESCHI-

Hello friends and family!  I’m back.  I’m back on the healthy train.  You see I can be totally honest here because why not!  On January 1st I proclaimed good and balanced health!  My feet were hurting, I was struggling with depression and had lazy syndrome.  So I began to drink more water, walk more and cut out some of the crap.  I wasn’t trying to be a super model or anything (clearly that is not the case) But I was trying to get my feet to stop hurting and my mood to improve and my life style to reflect a healthy example for my one and only girl.  However I know I’m not alone in the struggles to KEEP IT UP. I think I lasted until around my birthday which is in May.  And mind you the weight coming off wasn’t a huge amount during that time.  I started at 180 and I got down to 170 or so.  So it took me nearly half a year to lose just 10 pounds but it felt like more because I was walking with intention and my inches went down and I began to feel better and I didn’t want to come home each day from work and sit in my dark room, or lay on my bed and do NOTHING.  Because folks this is what I often do.  I come home, feel overwhelmed and just go into my bedroom and lay on the bed, close my eyes and try to ignore my to-do-list.  Then about the time motorcycle man is ready to come home I may hop up, make our bed, vacuum some floors and do the dishes.  Then make all sorts of excuses as to why I feel like NOT walking.

Last week my friend Shauna texted me.  “Do you want to join the Body, Mind and Spirit Challenge?”  She had done this once already with great success and said it was really easy because it was real life stuff and not only did her challenge include making better food choices it included a spiritual aspect, spending time in the word with prayer and meditation it also included paying it forward in a sense, doing good deeds for strangers and of course daily exercise.   All the good stuff she did added up to points so she had a goal to acquire her points each day, she was on a team and didn’t want to let the team down but in doing this challenge she realized it made a huge difference in her life.  She is no longer in a size 10 pants and she figured out how to squeeze in exercise to feel better.  She will be handing those down to me when I get out of my size 12 which I’m totally excited to get some jeans out of this deal.

Actually in the images I’m about to share I’m wearing my size 10 pants, which I can zip up AND button but I should not be wearing in public.  They don’t quite look so great nor do they feel that great.  But I decided I would wear them for all my pictures.  You know when your pants get tight and they sort of begin to flood up.  This is how I feel in these pants,  plus because they are sort of low-rise, my butt crack easily shows when I sit down and my muffin top spills out over the top…DOES NOT FEEL GOOD.

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I’m not embraced to say I’m starting today at 177, my hips are a nice curvy 43-1/2″  my waist is 37-1/2″ my bust which seems so dang busty is at 41″  I was always really flat growing up and even when I got married had to pad my bra so after kids they bursted into melons and wow, it’s just a trip because I never ever thought they would get like this.  For me they seem big.  okay so onto the right arm at 12″ and the right thigh at 22″.  And when I look at these pictures I’m about to share again I actually don’t  think I look so bad.  However I have that little depression back and the lazy syndrome but my feet don’t hurt anymore so that’s good.  Plus the muffin top, that just feels uncomfortable in clothes.  It makes it so I don’t even want to try clothes on actually.

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IMG_7913I always feel such great support and cheer from the readers of my blog.  I thrive on community and encouragement from people.  It’s just how I seem to do best.  So this challenge seems like a right fit, a good life style.  It’s for 8 weeks and we will see if my body transforms in that time.  My biggest hope is that my spirit improves that I will be more productive in my life after work and not so lazy.  Plus constantly striving to be a better example to my girl and in lots of ways in her speech at least I feel some of it sinks in when she uses words like, “I just want to be healthy” or when she draws pictures of us together and writes the words “walking together miles and miles to get healthy”  Which reminds me, our shared blog Life in the 7 Cea’s has also taken a back seat.  Maybe we can rev that up again too.

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I know this is so much to read and sorry about that but I will finish with this.  Today I feel empowered because although I can beat myself up over and over about how I have failed so many times, there will never be success unless I just keep trying again and again again.  Never give up.  So I try and I don’t give up and that is when battles are won and success begins to happen.  Because it WILL happen if we just keep at it.  I know so many of you women can agree with me and are nodding your heads up and down.  And if you feel like reading more please visit Mortal Muses Guest Spot with my friend LINDA SILVA PALLESCHI    post about a really neat lady I have been gifted to know through photographs and personal email exchanges and I admire her greatly and when I read her truth I’m also inspired because I feel just like her about myself.  Just like her!

Body and Soul – June

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we are in this together

And here we are half way through the year already! It really does seem to move quicker with each year I add to my life. I think it’s good to have plans for the month. If I have a plan I do so much better even though I claim to be a fly by the seat of your pants kind of gal. Planning doesn’t come natural to me. I’m scattered, I’m messy and when it comes to planning for a trip and then packing for it…I get anxiety. Very often I pack just hours before I’m going to leave because if I begin to pack and plan days before or weeks like some people do, then my head starts to hurt and I feel like the world will spin off its axis. So against my nature I have to make plans. If I went willy, nilly through my days then I wouldn’t get anything very productive done and forget about eating with intention and moving and all the stuff that’s good for me. I would find excuses.

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My littlest and only girl and I were thinking of our summer plan. Her two favorite cousins will both be in Europe this summer for a chunk of time so it will be just the two of us with some occasional play dates. Our biggest plan is called Body and Soul. We have created a list of GOOD things that will earn us points for each day. We also have decided negative points need to accompany this plan. Life isn’t all roses you know; we have to admit that not all our choices will be good; therefore they will be negative points. So here is how it will go:

If we start off our day with a good breakfast, that will be 10 points and with each glass of water we drink we will get 10 points, when we spend time in the Word we get 10 points, when we do an active activity for more than 30 minutes, that will be 10 points, if she does a household chore, 10 points! And so on. If we decide that we want to order a soda while out, we get a negative 10 because let’s face it, if soda can clean a ring of hard water deposit off a toilet bowl then it’s not very good for us. If we decide to play on our devices for more than 30 minutes, that will be a negative 10. I don’t want brownies and cupcakes to feel like a bad thing so it’s hard for me to place a negative on treats (especially homemade ones we will be making together) so rather than put it as a negative I would rather us earn our negative food points. I’m still working out the kinks but I’m thinking if we have earned at least 50 points we can have one treat here or there? This is a loose plan until we work it out, test it you know?  I discussed it with my business minded child (second born) and he finds lots of holes in my plan and has some ideas.  So tweaking for sure will be happening. We just need something to keep us motivated so I’m going to work on a checklist with the littlest and only girl and slide it into one of those plastic sleeves so we can use it over and over each day with a dry erase pen. This is the biggest plan for June.

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The word is Mindful. I will also try to be more mindful in June because currently I’m mindless in most my day-to-day routines. More on that later.