sometimes

as it turns out, I didn’t find a feather and the heart didn’t show itself, the words….not found.  Yesterday was a busy day.  Isnt’ that the story of us moms? I wouldn’t trade it.  Nope.  Conferences took longer than I thought.  I managed to grab Moon Rebel half way walking home, then I had tea scheduled with a friend of mine.  There was no way I was going to cancel that.  So we sat and talked and got all caught up and before I knew it, it began to get a little dark and so I missed my chance to walk around town to look for feathers and hearts and words.  I had to get home to shop for tonight’s dinner.  I’m having my family over for old-fashioned chicken and dumplings.  So this is how it goes.  And my house.  Oh my house.  It’s such a mess from being gone so much this week between work, extra work and just mom things.  I will come home today, clean and clean and get those chicken and dumplings on the stove so we can then visit and enjoy family time.  The weekend is almost here and there will be rest.  I will have to post my fall project blog by Saturday since somehow I found no words. IMG_6695bw

 

scenes from the morning

IMG_6686what was your morning like today? I got to take it a little easy because littlest and only girl doesn’t have school today….or tomorrow….or all of next week.  This means I don’t have to rush out in the morning.  I like that.  This morning motorcycle man tried to wake me with jokes “so a man was across the street and waved at me, I waved back and he said, oh sorry, I thought you were someone else, and I said I am someone else”  I was so confused “I was like Rich did this really happen?”  he just laughed, he got a kick out of himself.  Then he comes back to say “you know that one lady who walks her little dog every morning?”  me “ah huh”  “well I asked her if her dog bites and she said no, so then I said but then how does he eat?”  then he laughs and laughs.  I was like, am I in the twilight zone? You have to picture, he is the morning guy.  He makes the coffee, he waters the lawn, he lets the animals out for fresh air, he takes Moon Rebel to zero period, yep, he is the morning guy.  Me, not so much.

I hope you all have a great day today.  I will be looking for cadet blue, I will be meeting with teachers for conferences, I get to have tea with a friend, I hope to find a feather, it’s been a while and for sure a heart will pop up someplace and maybe even some words, my goal is to find some inspiring words today.  See you tomorrow.  Tomorrow is fall project with my friend Christina.

 

magic happens at the strangest hours

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Last night.  I woke up at around 2:45 and I just laid in bed with my eyes WIDE open.  Just as awake as anyone could be.  I got up, walked around a little, used the restroom and laid back to bed with my eyes WIDE open.  Then as I just lay there, eyes totally adjusted to the dark, just staring wide eyed at the night-time happenings, I hear the fairy wand go off.  It was just after 3:00 a.m.  So I lay for a little longer then think, I should check that message.  It may be something I’m supposed to read.  I also had a feeling I knew exactly who it was.  I was right!  It was her.  My tree house club leader, just checking in with me, showing me some sketches.  Some really amazing sketches.  I got up for a while and sent her a few more messages.  Back and forth we went.  And you know what?  She took my mind out of scatter mode, she calmed me down.  I stopped scratching and picking at my legs and I found myself smiling at 3:15 a.m. in the morning just me and my treehouse  buddy and Max of course.  And we even schemed up some plans, like crazy plans in the middle of the night.  Well, it wasn’t middle of the night for my friend, it was more like late morning but anyhow.  This is what happened in the wee early hours on the West Coast in the West house.  I found it to be a gift from God, he was using my friend to calm me down to distract me from all the scratching and wide awake-ness.   I’m so thankful.  You have no idea.

P.S. this is a true story.

I promise to count my BLESSINGS

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This week although I will honestly say I have felt a bit in the dark I can’t deny the blessing that still have revealed themselves to me and to be honest that can have me feeling almost worse because I have so many things to be thankful for.  I’m loved for and cared for and there is health, there is nourishment, there is warmth and above and beyond that there will be a note that hits my in-box that will be filled with love and encouragement, sister to sister lifting one another up, or a random text of hello, and here are some uplifting words I found just for you.   

Then there is the very, very unexpected blessing of getting jobs.  Yes, you heard that right, getting jobs.

I have an opportunity to work at my mom and dad’s business and because of that I get to work only half of the day.  This way I can get my children off to school and be home to pick them up at different shifts.  As I do sort of feel constantly on the go with picking and taking up children not just my own I’m so happy to be the one to do it.  That I can be there when they go to school and when they come home.

Back to more jobs! My dad needed a notary for the business we do so many years ago I studied to be a notary.  Back then that’s what you did, you studied on your own, you went to the police department and got old-fashioned finger prints and you took a test given by the state.  I passed, then next term things changed and they began to offer classes that I could take and then take the test so I would have an even better chance on passing it but with the class came an extra cost, but I was lucky because our company paid for it (thank you Dad)  I have taken the exam 5 time now and I will be beginning my new term soon.  My current commission expires early December, I will go get sworn in this week for my new term.  I have never done much with my notary except help friends for free and do all the stuff that needs to be done that pertains to work.

Recently I was talking with a friend of mine who is an attorney and I mentioned I was a notary because I had just received a text from a family member asking a notary question.  I read it out loud in front of her because they were asking for legal advice which notaries are not allowed to give.  We basically are just there to verify you understand what you are signing and that you are who you say you are.  That’s it.  She was thrilled to hear I was a notary.  She had no idea!  Well, I don’t so much go around talking about it but so the word was out.  She asked if she could use me from time to time.  Although it felt nerve-racking because although it sounds easy, there is a lot to know and since I don’t do a whole lot of notarizing I was nervous but I thought I need to take this opportunity.  Two weeks ago I did my first job for her and made some cash, then yesterday I had another job only this time it included travel fees plus the cost per signature and today she has given me two more jobs.

So my littlest and only girl has a mouth full of cavities:(  They are costly to fill.  Guess what, these four jobs she has given me will almost cover 2 whole fillings which will happen tomorrow.  All I can say is, God is so good.  Yes, I would rather spend the money on fun things, like a new camera lens, or new shoes even but God knows where it’s really needed and He has provided greatly and I’m very thankful.  That’s my story today.

Unexpected Enchantment

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When I read words like simple, and good old days, delight and wonder I knew it was time to pull Raggedy Ann from the top shelf of my closet.  You will see in the photographs below that she was well-loved by me.  I have had her since I was born.  My great-aunt Oletha had Raggedy Ann and Andy both hand-made for me by a friend of hers.  I only have Raggedy Ann left though because I was told by my mom that I left Andy up north on one of my summer visits to see my birth father.  I feel so grateful that my mom kept her for me, that she thought to give her back to me when I got married.  I could never part with her.  She is special to me although not on display anyplace in my house.  She just stays up on the top shelf of my closet.  I will never wash her either, the suck marks on her little mitten hands were made by me.  Instead of being attached to a blanket or my own thumb, I was attached to Raggedy Ann’s mitten hands which I sucked for comfort.  I felt she was more than worthy to be photographed and shared.  And of course I’m wondering what Christina will come up with, what did she feel was special to her and worthy to be shared and photographed? IMG_0424 IMG_0425 IMG_0427 IMG_0429

Good Day Sunshine

What happens when you haven’t seen the sun in weeks? You find your own sun of course” Tracey Clark

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“Good Day Sunshine” Such a happy little song!  And you know the Beatles lived where it’s was gray and gloomy so much of the time so they found sun light to be a BIG blessing!  And me, well I live in Southern California and we have lots and lots of sunshine.  This week has been odd though.  Very gray and sort of cool.  Our fall weather I suppose.  I have not been able to find my shadow and I get really giddy on gray days.  It can mean layers, hot drinks and soup simmering all day long, crackling fires and warm socks.  Since its sunny here so much I long for gray, rainy, gloomy days.  But I will be glad to play along when it comes to finding sunshine on a gray day. For my friend Christina it really is lacking in color in her neck of the woods.  She has had snow!  Which of course gets me all worked up!  SNOW! She plays in it too, she even stands barefoot atop benches in it! Oh snow!  I have a romantic notion of the snow.  Only one of my three children has ever seen it actually snow. Second born went to Science camp for a week back in 5th grade and got snowed in.  He didn’t mind he had to stay up there in the mountains one additional day, cause he got to see the snow fall from the sky.  He didn’t care he came home damp with every single item in his luggage wet and muddy, he got to play in the snow!  This is what I love about this fall project I’m doing with 22limes, she has a completely different environment than me.  I admire her snow days and she admires my sunshine days, where I can drive with my top down and even go to the beach if I want to. She had me realize the other day that I take all that for granted.  I never give it a second thought.  It’s all I have ever known. And you know, it’s really something to be thankful for, our California sunshine so this post is two in one.  My fall project and also today’s gratitude. SUNSHINE!  even when there isn’t much…like on this day…so I made my own just like Tracey said.

 

nourishment

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I’m so grateful that I can come home from work and pick some herbs from my tiny little garden box for our soup tonight.  I’m grateful for friends who give me yummy soup recipes.  It’s a blessing to be able to cut up all the onions that burn my eyes, the beautiful orange sweet potato, the green kale.  I find it to be so meditative when I cut our vegetables and think about how lucky we are to have these things.  We can eat well tonight and I’m so thankful.

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IMG_0359Michelle gd is also sharing her gratitude and I enjoyed last year so much spending a week with her and her emails that hit my in box and have me digging even deeper when it comes to our daily gratitude.  I also have a few other friends who are joining Michelle in her week of gratitude, my blog partner Christina, my friend in Canada, Connie and lucky me, I was introduced to someone new because of Michelle, tea and paper is also joining in.  The world is such a beautiful place because my friend Vanessa was the one who introduced me to Michelle last year and I think Vanessa is also participating and all these threads, they connect us….also something to be grateful for.